Live & Direct from Nowhere in Particular...

I don’t tend to put a lot of stock in new age mumbo jumbo. But recently when I’ve been down or whatever, I’ve taken to checking my biorhythm. And somehow it always seems to line up. Peculiar.

I don’t tend to put a lot of stock in things like this, but I still find it interesting when they coincide with reality. And I do think that moods and other needs are quite cyclical.

The physical I should have guessed. This was probably a bad week to start back on the weights. I could barely move my upper body on Wednesday morning from my workout Monday. It was worse than I’ve ever been before. & all day today it hurt to walk … and stand … and was uncomfortable to drive … from my leg workout Wednesday. Even worse than my reaction to my upper body Monday.

The intellectual I haven’t really noticed, but the emotional I definitely have. That was actually what made me check the little graph.I actually went to bed over an hour ago. No luck on the sleep. & even though it shouldn’t have, Jeremy not going to TMS upset me. I guess it was more than I could handle. So … I decided to blog about it. There’s someone I should be able to call & talk to, but he never answers his phone, so why bother. (That last bit falls into the category of things I know better than to post, but I’m going to anyway, since that’s my mood.)

Just realized I haven’t posted since my lousy 24 hours. that streak lasted a little longer, but overall stuff has improved. I had the disappointment that Steve couldn’t come over that night, which would have been nice. But, my car was ready in the morning & I was only out the money for the oil change. They also did the “Timing Belt Inspection” & noticed a vacuum leak that may be what is causing my CEL.

Still no grades back from my class though.

This was in last week’s PostSecret. This could practically be my secret. Well, I’m not sure I’d call my job great, & it’s not everyday. It’s not really a secret either.

Toss out those old philosophies whose time has come and gone. Update your attitude.

Perhaps I’ll toss out more than philosophies.

I was finally starting to put away Clarence’s carrier & stuff to make room for the Christmas tree, so I was a bit down to begin with. And would you believe that the first song to play off the Holiday playlist on my iPod was Blue Decorations by B.B. King.

Blue Decorations

Lyrics & Music: Jerry Gillespie

As Performed by: B.B. King

Blue Decorations, on my Christmas tree.
The saddest time of the year,
‘Cause you’re not here with me.
But I hung you a stockin’,
Just in case you’re free.
Blue Decorations, on my Christmas tree.

You know the spirit of Christmas,
Is sure hard to share alone.
When you once had it all,
But now all you had is gone.
All the children are singin’,
The saddest melodies.
Blue Decorations, on my Christmas tree.

Ho ho ho,
I don’t feel Christmassy.

They call it a holiday,
But they all are the same to me.
Like these Blue Decorations,
on my Christmas tree.

The forecast is cloudy,
______y, sad and cold.
And the weather man says,
We’re gonna get some snow.
I guess I’ll open my presents,
To me, From me.

‘Neath these Blue Decorations,
on my Christmas tree.
Ho ho ho
Oh, I don’t feel Christmassy.

I transcribed them myself, cos I couldn’t find them anywhere (something the Google didn’t know), so the “______y” is a word I couldn’t discern.

Well, at least to me. I’m the first to admit that I am bad at keeping in touch with people and even at returning calls & messages. But I noticed something interesting, it seems that the people that I am most interested in hearing from are those with the same bad habit.

Usually when I do it it’s because, subconsciously I don’t want to talk to that person or deal with that issue at the moment, so I put it off for a bit, then tend to forget about it. Then of course I only remember things like that at 1am. Not exactly the best time to respond. And the longer I wait to respond, the less I want to. Makes for a nice little spiral.

So, now I just need to figure out if perhaps the reason I am interested in responses from these people is because they are rare / unattainable, or if there are real reasons I actually enjoy interacting with them. *sigh*